"I Won't Let Go"

I am a country music fan.  Every day at work, I listen to the "new country" station on Slacker Radio on my Android phone.  Every day on my drive home, I listen to "The Highway" on Sirius/XM.  I can name most current country songs and the artists singing the songs after the first few notes.  I'd do awesome on "Name That Tune" if there was an all-country version.  That being said, it should then come as no surprise that I've heard the new Rascal Flatts song, "I Won't Let Go".  Below, I've included the lyrics to the song for those of you reading who don't want to watch the video (yes, Tim, I'm looking at you...I know how much you hate listening to country).

It's like a storm

That cuts a path

It breaks your will

It feels like that

You think you're lost

But you're not lost on your own,

You're not alone

I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go

It hurts my heart to see you cry

I know its dark this part of life

Oh it find us all and we're to small

to stop the rain

Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let you fall

Don't be afraid to fall

I'm right here to catch you

I won't let you down

It won't get you down

You're gonna make it

I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go

Oh I'm gonna hold you

and I won't let go

Won't let you go

No I won't

The first time I heard this song, I broke down in tears, which probably wasn't the safest thing since I was driving at the time.  And every time since then, when this song comes on the radio, I turn it up and just let it wash over me.  You see, to me, this song is my husband.  When the grief gets to be too much, when I just lose it and start crying, he's the one right beside me, keeping me afloat.  He reminds me that I'm not alone in this hell, that he is right there beside me, holding me up, helping me fight my fight, giving me the support I need.  He is the one who holds me tight and let's me be in the moment, telling me it's ok to cry and miss our daughter.  He makes it ok to wish it was different at the same time acknowledging that it never will be.  He is truly the only other person in the world who knows just how I feel, because he is Brianna's father and he misses her too.  We are on this road together.  So, even though sometimes I feel alone, all I have to do is reach out into the dark and I'll find him there, ready to hold my hand.  And I know that no matter what happens in the future, he will never let me go.