Tuesday, August 9, 2011

1 Year

Dear Brianna,

A year.  I just can't believe it's been a year, yet at the same time, I can't believe it's only been a year.  In hindsight, time seems to have flown by this past year.  But during the year itself, it seemed to be just crawling along.  I don't know if that's because of the grief or because I'm getting older or both.

Daddy and I miss you very much.  We would have liked to have spent your first birthday watching you eat your cake, getting frosting all over your face and in your hair.  Instead, we visited your grave and brought you pink roses and a butterfly balloon.  I hope that you can feel our love where you are.

Today, lots of family and friends told us they were remembering you.  There are so many of them who love you too.  You would have been such a spoiled baby had you lived.  Not only would you have had your daddy wrapped around your little finger, but your Granddad H and Papa S too.  Not to mention your Grandma H and Nana S and aunts and all the other "aunties" and "uncles".  I am so sorry that you are missing out on all that.

Happy Birthday, Brianna.  We love you, we miss you, and we always will.



Catherine W said...

Time seems to do strange thing in the aftermath of losing a baby. It seems to both speed up and slow down if such a thing were possible.

I'm sorry that Brianna will not be there with you all, it sounds as though she would have been surrounded by so much love. Not only from you and your husband but from all your friends and family too.

The present you brought to her grave sound beautiful and, I feel certain, that she felt your love where she is. Your words here are so full of love for your little girl.

Thinking of you and remembering Brianna xo

Hope's Mama said...

Remembering and missing Brianna with you.

Kate said...

Happy birthday to your sweet baby girl! Thinking of you all.